…spotless mind

Posted: May 29, 2008 in Uncategorized
How do you know where you’re going
When you don’t know where you’ve been
You hide the shame that you’re not showing
And you won’t let anyone in
A crowded street can be a quiet place
When you’re walking alone
And now you think that you’re the only
One who doesn’t

Have to try
And you won’t have to feel
If you’re afraid to fight
Then i guess you never will
You hide behind your walls
Of maybe nevers
Forgetting that there’s something more
Than just knowing better
Your mistakes do not define you now
They tell you who you’re not
You’ve got to live this life you’re given
Like it’s the only one you’ve got

Memories have left you broken
And the scars have never healed
The emptiness in you is growing
But so little left to fill
You’re scared to look back on the days before
You’re too tired to move on
And now you think that you’re the only one who doesn’t

Have to try
And you won’t have to feel
If you’re afraid to fight
Then i guess you never will
You hide behind your walls
Of maybe nevers
Forgetting that there’s something more
Than just knowing better
Your mistakes do not define you now
They tell you who you’re not
You’ve got to live this life you’re given
Like it’s the only one you’ve got

What would it take
To get you to say that i’ll try
And what would you say if
This was the last day of your life

You hide behind your walls
Of maybe nevers
Forgetting that there’s something more
Than just knowing better
Your mistakes do not define you now
They tell you who you’re not
You’ve got to live this life you’re given
Like it’s the only one you’ve got

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everytime, when i reach out for something, i realise, it’s always something far beyond reach. God cant even imagine i got myself in the same hole again. I must have loved the pain it’s given, that i couldnt stay myself away from it. I must have been addicted to the “fucken heroin”. Time after time, I just wonder what kind of a lovely deal is this? A real deal to come along maybe? And I am expected to take the deal without being able to touch it. I take the fucken deal, let it hook into me, and throw it away when it becomes so real? How does this work? I am totally clueless.

“Memories have left me broken
And the scars have never healed
The emptiness in me is growing
But so little left to fill
I’m scared to look back on the days before
I’m too tired to move on”

[Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind]

how do i know, how many walls i’ve been hiding behind all this time? How do i know, if i could ever climb over them? How do i know what’s more and what’s better? How do i know how safe on the other side? How do i know and how do i try? Life is such a bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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